Any minute now Dempsey’s tail is going to knock over one of the two glass vases we have sitting on the old tattered chest and I will have to sweep up the glass. But until then, I will try to focus on this.
Addiction -the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity. “he committed the theft to finance his drug addiction.”
Many people struggle with addiction and varying degrees of addiction, as well as addictions to a variety of different things. I have battled my share of addiction over the past 25 years and seem to be dealing with it again.
Addiction affects everyone differently and not only does it manage to harm the lives of those in direct contact with it, but it destroys those of loved ones as well.
I am now trying to manage an addiction to shopping. I love to shop. I really really love to shop. In the morning before breakfast, in the afternoon on a break, in the evening while watching television – just the act alone of shopping is so satisfying that I have created a black hole for myself that is going to take some serious digging to get out of.
I have overcome alcoholism, drugs, smoking, vaping and I am sure many other things so I hope that this will just be another addiction I battle and beat. With the debt running high and the money running low, I wonder how I am going to get out of this predicament I have gotten myself into, but with the support of family and friends and alot of planning and budgeting, hopefully this will soon be a thing of the past.
I want to credit the fact that I am still sane to the love and support of one of my friends who constantly reminds me that God is on my side and will never forsake nor leave me. I often forget about that and forget to take the time to pray for help and guidance, but her ongoing encouragement keeps me believing I can and will get through this. Thank you bunny boo for your kindness, support, inspiration and fortitude. I love you very much.
It seems that everything I touch turns to an addiction. I guess I just have that type of personality. That means for the rest of my life I have to be aware of everything I do and keep things in moderation.
If you feel you have a problem with something, be it shopping, alcohol, gambling, drugs, or anything for that matter, please don’t wait until it’s too late to ask for assistance. If you ever need to talk about something, I am putting it out there that I am an open person to talk to. I have been through a great deal and can offer even more. Take care of yourself and always remember that in moderation things aren’t so bad. Keep praying and utilize the support you have around you. Don’t let things get so far out of control you have to take extreme measures to get them back on track.
“Before you pass judgment on someone who is self-destructing, it is important to remember they usually aren’t trying to destroy themselves. They are trying to destroy something inside that doesn’t belong.” – JmStorm
You are always one decision away from leading a totally different life. Let that sink in.
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